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Stressed out

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Since I moved here to Tx I have been trying to find stable employment, especially that is more in my field. I have been working from my home and despite many of advantages there have been more detrimental cons to them/it. I just cannot work for a company who has bad values and does not follow through fully.

For example, a client I worked with had military discount, but to ONLY things at the store on the shelf currently …. anything that had to be ordered in any capacity would not qualify. For one, their major competitor gave it to their customers no matter as long as you shop with their store in some capacity; and two our military does not get paid what they are worth and they have sacrificed their lives as well as their families have as well….. and you can’t extend that discount to anything and everything you sell no matter how you do so?

(And just to let you know if you didn’t know already… I am an Army brat and now Army wife twice! I have spent, with the exception of about 2 years or so, all of my life associated with the military! I have dealt with my family being split for many months to years apart!)

I have, apparently, been pigeon holed into a specific type of employment and cannot seem to get, due not being experienced, a job that will be complementary by my Bachelors degree. And the caveat to that is how am I to get experience when I can’t get a job?

I just had another interview today, which is in another town just about or alittle over an hour away. And yep yet again it was not a fair for either of us. I put on the ‘application’, right before the interview to the question, ‘What do expect from us?’ 1st honesty, 2nd consistency, and 3rd decent pay.

Well to start, I don’t think they were honest when posting the job for customer service….it was about events, standing in high traffic areas raising money or making their cause/business known.

Uhm thats not the definition of a customer service job. And then we discussed both the consistency and pay…..the ‘events’ could be 2-6 hours, maybe 4-6 a week and depending on how much raised is how much you make. I don’t see any consistency in hours or pay and I am not going to stand somewhere, supposedly getting paid, for $30 (on average for the event).

And this is not the 1st time going on interviews that there was some kind of miscommunication and I drove all this time, spent money on gas and a snack or lunch….that I really don’t have to be doing and I could have had something at home.

And the worst part, I have applied with several, over 6, different staffing agencies! One agency sent me on two interviews …. one I think I was turned down due to my religion…. since they were a christian college they could get away with it. But I still think it’s wrong.

I am almost feeling that the jobs I am qualified for and want that I may be in the category of ageism may be why I am not getting hired….

So with all that being said, I really aggravated in the fact of finding a job of some kind has gotten me so anxious and depressed more so than I already am, which is not helping my health.

Good luck to those in similar situations.

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Decided

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After many discussions with doctors, my hubby and friends who are medical professionals (having knowledge both medical and personal about this disease) and lastly….gaining about 15 lbs in the last 3 months or so, I have made a decision. Gaining weight due to avoiding the foods that are supposed to keep flares from happening but are helpful in keeping or losing weight. Im done!

The two visits with the surgeon were disappointing….my GI and many other doctors agree surgery would benefit my life, all the surgeon talks about is the 1-3% of failure of the surgery. He is like obsessed and won’t shut up about it.

I was also diagnosed with fatty liver disease (thanks to being somewhat overweight) and arthritis….all which having weight issues is a major problem. Oh and my sleeping issues, I am now on a CPAP machine….which is helping but I am depressed, anxious and freaking tired as all get out.

I declared to my hubby I am going to eat to good foods, which may cause another flare but I will be able to finally get a different surgeon (mine is getting deployed) and get the surgery and be happier in the long run!

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Disease maintenance with food.

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I went for a surgical consult last week about removing the part of intestine that is infected by the diverticulitis. The surgeon 😷 didn’t seem like he was too willing for doing the procedure, reason being I have only had 2 flares in 2 months….granted all doctors I have previously seen (GI and all the ones in the ER) all agree surgery would be a great idea so I don’t suffer all the symptoms I do. He also was not happy about the fact I had been on antibiotics a week prior and was still having tenderness. He decided to put me back on antibiotics and put me on the surgery schedule tentatively in March. So I have decided to do more homemade dinners especially.

Friday I made a very mild red beans and rice, hubby added salsa chips. I made this from dried beans in my multi pot, adding in sautéed onions, carrots, bell pepper, celery and mushrooms, along with ham hocks, spice mix we like and water to cover.

Saturday I then made pork tacos. I took a picnic pork roast and put it in my multi pot to make it shredable. It was falling apart by the time I was done. Adding in the onion, carrot, celery and our goto spices and of course some water.

Sunday I made spaghetti 🍝 and meatballs, homemade meatballs. These meatballs were very tender and moist. I chopped up 2 pieces of white bread and added milk to moisten. I then added 2 eggs, chopped onions, celery, carrots and mushrooms. Then of course added hamburger meat and lastly 1/2 cup of oatmeal. Mixed the mixture and made into balls and then cooked in the oven. I removed them from the grease that was left over and cooled completely. Then while the pasta was cooking I made the sauce and warmed the meatballs in it. Adding the pasta to complete and a side of garlic bread.

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Hidden ailments/diseases

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Sooo… I ended up having to go to the doctor, who called the next day to check on me (she told me go to the ER), I go to the ER and spend all day, and then end up having to go right back late in the night/early in the morning (depending on how one looks at it), and then they admit me for 2 days. Feeling awful makes it hard to bear oneself, so I didn’t get any knitting or crochet done while there.

I’ve been diagnosed with diverticulitis, along with a few other things. My grandmother suffered from it and my dad has bouts of it too. During an episode, if you want to call it, or a flare up, antibiotics are needed (which lemme tell ya are nasty tasting and can have some aide effects that are down right miserable). Then a low fiber diet, and alot of limitations to certain types of food, like nuts and seeds for example are no no’s. Then when well, a high fiber diet to keep things rolling.

If you’d like more info on the ailment…. here is a pic of simple terms.

I’m looking at making a batch of soap tomorrow will post then.

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Busy or Productive, which are you?

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Have you ever considered when you talk to someone about what you say and what you actually mean?  For example when you say that you are or have been busy and what you actually mean is you have been productive?

When talking to someone, and when asked ‘how have you been?’ or ‘what have you been up to?’ and you respond with ‘busy’, do you consider what that actually means?  I know in my generation (and I have no idea what generation I am in or what my kids are in now, but I digress) we were taught to think more about how we say things before we say them.

Busy

Ok, here is what I mean, do you know what the definition of busy actually is, compared to the word productive?

Definition of busy is having a great deal to do or keeping occupied, according to google.

Definition of productive is yielding results, benefits or profits, according to Merriam-Webster dictionary.

Having Time

So, with that being said, are you busy all the time or are you productive, or to think about it, maybe a mix of both?  In today’s society we use some words interchangeably and sometimes too much.

Here’s another question….when one is being productive are they also busy; which is to say, when one is busy are they being productive s well?  Yea I know, makes you actually think!  There are plenty of times I am busy and not being productive but times I am being productive and am busy!

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Been busy….

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I’ve been busy since I last posted. Here are some things that I have done while away.

Here is something I love to make but my stomach hates me for eating too much of when I do. This is what I call barley risotto, it has onions, mushrooms, butter, chicken broth, leftover roasted chicken and yes barley.

Unfortunately my daughters kitty, Bruce, got down and sick, come to find out he has some chronic illness that if stressed enough will bring it on. Poor thing was sick for about a week and really loved medicine time…we mixed it with wet food. He is such a character.

We adopted this cutie, the stressor to kitty :(. Ended up being too much for our whole family, other critters included so we had to give him back. ;(.

Our sweet momma dog, Cleo, left us a few weeks after we got crazy dog. It was very hard for my hubby and I, especially my hubby since he had had her since a pup.

Our sweetie, Dexter, passed away a few weeks ago. Come to find out since ferrets have so much inbreeding they don’t live very long due to tumors or other illnesses. We think he had a tumor on his pancreas.

We got this cutie, Nutmeg, seeing that our other ferret baby seemed to be lonely and depressed due to his brother passing. She is alot of fun and crazy in a very little package. Lol

WIPS and projects is progress…

Will explain them more later! Bye for now!

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Lentils recipe…my way

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I saw a recipe for lentils and liked most of it, minus the soy sauce, but adding a few more ingredients.

It was called Canal House Lentils recipe, but I made it my own.

Sauté leeks (that are chopped how you like and cleaned well), minced garlic, and chopped mushrooms in butter.

After about 5 minutes or so, add a tablespoon of tomato paste and sauté for a few.

Add a cup of lentils and 2 1/2 cups water and simmer until done. The directions say 45-55 minutes, mine didn’t take 30, Im still getting used to my stove.

Due to the over doneness of the lentils I added cream and a cup of cooked barley (cooked in 2 cups chicken stock until it adsorbed it all) to add depth and flavor.

I had seconds. Adding some cooked chicken would make it a whole meal.

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Project on hold for now.

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My nephews snoodie is on hold… I played yarn 🐓 chicken. I was able to finish the body but I didn’t have enough to close the hood or make ears. I had to order more red yarn. I will get it in time to finish before next weekend. We are going back to Houston to visit again and I will be able to give it to him then.

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Melt down….

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I hurt in all my joints today and as the day to night has progressed it has gotten worse. It has made doing things even more difficult. Crocheting while watching tv, yeah was very painful, more than usual.

So I had a major breakdown tonight…tears and everything.

And it was all over a damn knot! I was trying to tie a knot and my hands were so numb and hurting, That even though I could see what I was doing, I couldn’t feel a thing other than pain. Like now as I type. Ugh!