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Stressed out

Since I moved here to Tx I have been trying to find stable employment, especially that is more in my field. I have been working from my home and despite many of advantages there have been more detrimental cons to them/it. I just cannot work for a company who has bad values and does not follow through fully.

For example, a client I worked with had military discount, but to ONLY things at the store on the shelf currently …. anything that had to be ordered in any capacity would not qualify. For one, their major competitor gave it to their customers no matter as long as you shop with their store in some capacity; and two our military does not get paid what they are worth and they have sacrificed their lives as well as their families have as well….. and you can’t extend that discount to anything and everything you sell no matter how you do so?

(And just to let you know if you didn’t know already… I am an Army brat and now Army wife twice! I have spent, with the exception of about 2 years or so, all of my life associated with the military! I have dealt with my family being split for many months to years apart!)

I have, apparently, been pigeon holed into a specific type of employment and cannot seem to get, due not being experienced, a job that will be complementary by my Bachelors degree. And the caveat to that is how am I to get experience when I can’t get a job?

I just had another interview today, which is in another town just about or alittle over an hour away. And yep yet again it was not a fair for either of us. I put on the ‘application’, right before the interview to the question, ‘What do expect from us?’ 1st honesty, 2nd consistency, and 3rd decent pay.

Well to start, I don’t think they were honest when posting the job for customer service….it was about events, standing in high traffic areas raising money or making their cause/business known.

Uhm thats not the definition of a customer service job. And then we discussed both the consistency and pay…..the ‘events’ could be 2-6 hours, maybe 4-6 a week and depending on how much raised is how much you make. I don’t see any consistency in hours or pay and I am not going to stand somewhere, supposedly getting paid, for $30 (on average for the event).

And this is not the 1st time going on interviews that there was some kind of miscommunication and I drove all this time, spent money on gas and a snack or lunch….that I really don’t have to be doing and I could have had something at home.

And the worst part, I have applied with several, over 6, different staffing agencies! One agency sent me on two interviews …. one I think I was turned down due to my religion…. since they were a christian college they could get away with it. But I still think it’s wrong.

I am almost feeling that the jobs I am qualified for and want that I may be in the category of ageism may be why I am not getting hired….

So with all that being said, I really aggravated in the fact of finding a job of some kind has gotten me so anxious and depressed more so than I already am, which is not helping my health.

Good luck to those in similar situations.

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Decided

After many discussions with doctors, my hubby and friends who are medical professionals (having knowledge both medical and personal about this disease) and lastly….gaining about 15 lbs in the last 3 months or so, I have made a decision. Gaining weight due to avoiding the foods that are supposed to keep flares from happening but are helpful in keeping or losing weight. Im done!

The two visits with the surgeon were disappointing….my GI and many other doctors agree surgery would benefit my life, all the surgeon talks about is the 1-3% of failure of the surgery. He is like obsessed and won’t shut up about it.

I was also diagnosed with fatty liver disease (thanks to being somewhat overweight) and arthritis….all which having weight issues is a major problem. Oh and my sleeping issues, I am now on a CPAP machine….which is helping but I am depressed, anxious and freaking tired as all get out.

I declared to my hubby I am going to eat to good foods, which may cause another flare but I will be able to finally get a different surgeon (mine is getting deployed) and get the surgery and be happier in the long run!

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Invisible Diseases

So the last few months Ive been suffering from a set of new ailments. Not starting the year well so far.

I had to go to the doctor thinking I had a bladder infection. The doctor called me the next day and told me to go the ER. So the 1st of November I was later admitted to the hospital. After an ultrasound, cat scan and x-rays it was found I am suffering from diverticulitis. After a few days in the hospital, antibiotics in and to take home. Was doing ok afterwards.

I went and had a colonoscopy last week, Friday. They found the diverticulitis all almost together along with polyps which they removed. For the diverticulitis a suggestion of surgically removal of the intestines affected. And then ended up in the ER the same night due to migraines and vomiting, all due to dehydration from the prep for the colonoscopy. Ive been having a very up and down time since the procedure.

Then yesterday I felt like I was having a bladder infection again, and then today the pain was so much worse!! I couldn’t take it anymore I called my doctor and there were no appointments available. I had to go to the ER. They were worried that since it was so soon since my last episode and since I was not well soon after the colonoscopy. They were worried that there could have been perforations because of the colonoscopy or an abscess, had to see via a cat scan. Found that it was just my diverticulitis having another bout. More antibiotics, pain meds, clear diet for a day or two and a surgical consult coming.

I found out that my grandmother (my fathers mother) and my dad suffered/suffer from it. Reading about it in older articles it says that it isn’t genetic, but reading newer ones it seems like it actually maybe.